If someone had told me a few weeks ago things would be like this, I would have laughed in their face. Have I endured all that for a reason, or do I have to just a little more to be happy. I pray it’s over and this is it. I’m happy.
My day: ok
My night: :D :D :D
“She made you decent. And then in return, you made her so happy.”
Movies in 2012: One Day (2011)
Beautiful movie and book :)
So many plans out the door. Now what? I have decided law is not for me. It was all planned out for me and I had set goals and so on. And now. Omg I have no direction and no idea what to do.
Would you be happy to leave things like that with someone? Would you be happy if that was the last thing you said to someone before they died?
y do you guys shun shenanigans
b-sides are people too
^LOL
No big deal but my favourite band is releasing not one, not two, but three new albums. Ahhh!!!
(Source: green-day-br)
Lost
I don’t know what I’m doing here. What I’m doing with my life. I lost my map long ago. I get lost and sleep wherever. I wake up at 3 most mornings and worry for a while. I know I’ll get “there” someday. I use to know where “there” was. For now I can’t even seem to enjoy this road. I can’t live in the now. The past isn’t to flash either. The future looks good. In my head anyway. The distant future. The one where I am someone else.
In the meantime I can pretend I am someone who I am not, and pretend that someday that will be me. But here’s the thing. I know that’s not who I am. It isn’t me. It’s too good for me.
Even if at this point I was really organised and ahead, I don’t think I would be happy with it. I really hope it’s just me adjusting to this newity (made up words are good) and I’ll become that person. One day. Soon
This part of the movie makes me cry so so much.
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Uni sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I’ve seen the movies, I’ve watched people who have had a first hand experience. It is exactly like that. The horrible screams we couldn’t hold back, the feeling of “this is it, I’m going to die”.
Today I was driving. I hadn’t gotten a minute from my house when it happened. I blame my lack of experience but mostly my stupidity for letting it happen and putting my sisters life in danger.
I just can’t bring myself to forgive myself for doing that. It could’ve been the end. And if anything bad really serious had happened, I would not be able to accept it. I am so extremely lucky that it didn’t leave more than a big scratch to the car, but the damage it caused me is greater.
I’m studying law, but yesterday it occurred to be that I am in fact learning the rules of a complicated game called the legal system. There is no right and wrong. You just have to be smart enough to be able to use the rules and the exceptions to the rules to your advantage.
Only five weeks into it. Am I ever going to be good enough to manipulate these rules? Ummm…. Haha…. We’ll see….
Feel like I’m living multiple lives. Need to start living my real one someday soon.
What a joke? Who? Me of course. I seriously have reached new lows. I know I don’t have to be the best or try so hard to achieve the best. But this is just pathetic. I’ve let myself down. This isn’t me. Or is it? I said I didn’t want to live up to everyones expecations. Maybe I was just trying to deflect the truth. That I set them up, so I can let myself down over and over and never be content with myself. I set up all these excuses when really I am the one to blame.
The hunger games was actually a really great movie. Of course I was expecting it to be so but I tried really hard to criticize and judge and I came to the conclusion that it was just a fantastic movie. Love it!
My very favourite movie when I was younger. Melody child.
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